A steadfast heart

[mystic]

"My heart is steadfast, O God, my heart is steadfast" (Psalm 57:7)

"He will not be afraid of evil tidings; His heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. His heart is established" (Psalm 112:7-8)

There are peoples and peoples. Somebody, who is driven by feeling, is as the wind. A moment he is there, another moment he is another place. He does not even know where the wind will carry him. This kind of people can cause serious damage to the others, because they are not committed. Well, from their point of view, they might be committed, but they have no control where the wind will carry them next time. So, a moment they love, another moment they love no more. Partially, it does not even depend on them. They are slaves of their changing feelings.

Despite the former category of people is the most common, there are people who enthrone the Lord in His place. Their heart is an understanding heart, because it is governed by the brain. Their feelings spread out from the will to love and are steadfast. The will continuously tells the heart to love and how to love, and directs the wind of the feelings.
I think I belong to this category. How do I know? Well, if I look at my previous experiences, my love did not turn into hate. I am also consistent with my feelings. I see that love does not decrease. There must be the intervention of the mind to say, "That person does not deserve this; they harmed you so and so; love should be turned into pity".

Just for the sake of completeness, there is another big category of people who enthrone their body over their soul. Those just look to fulfill the pleasures of the senses. Of course, they are very mutable and untrustworthy.

It all depends on what you enthrone in your inner seat (i.e. which part of you will have the command). It can be either the soul, the spirit, or the body. This determines the kind of person you will be. What do you think?

[crisipicada]

Sometimes, we do not know who we really are. But, as human being we fall short of God's standard. We commit sin so, we become vulnerable and able to make mistake. And sometimes, it depends on how our circumstances would be why a person has done this or done that.

One thing I realized in my self was, I reacted to situation rather than responding to situation. I can see in my heart that I am compassionate person. I easily feel the pain of others when they are in pain. Try to carry their burden and be of help. But when it comes to having a relationship, that is now, I can say that, I am not really good in dealing with it since I am emotional person. On the other hand, many times I got emotional because people keep on cheating on me. Many promises has been given and you give your heart and trusted the person but later on they have another person. Then I realized that dating online is sometimes, people just making games. They get into relationship while still married, others would say, because their ex relationship is not working anymore. So, does having one can solve the problem?

Men and women has different struggles in life. For sure we struggle in our emotions. When women's emotion is not met, then responding to her boyfriend or husband wont be good at all. It affects a lot. On the other hand, when I feel too much burden and I cannot carry anymore, I retaliate. Then I realized that, I already hurt someone. But if I wont retaliate, then i get depress and I would be having heart attact because it is just so heavy in my heart. On the other hand, I just needed hugs and listening heart. Then later on if the burden is already gone, that is the time I can listen to the other person.

Also, as woman, like me, it is my prayer to have a husband. I know that I have been praying for years. So then when I have a relationship with someone that I can tell that it wont be going into marriage or settle down to have a husband then I tend to get depress. I keep on crying and crying why and asking myself, Is this life all to offer? Can I be happy and have my own family? So I let go and let God deal all these things. So I feel relieved.