Troubling to find one's soulmate
Posted: Sat Jul 27, 2013 1:20 amI would like to share one of my weekend readings. It's a commentary on the Song of Solomon from Tikunei Zohar. It's very beautiful, and I think it shows the troubled path that everybody of us is walking, looking for one's soulmate. The man coming and departing... seems like the many false loves that one finds in one's life. But the "last redemption" is the good one. She recognizes the man her soul loves. And she grabs his hands and does not let him go, until she brings him to her mother's house... where obviously he will ask her as bride. Here is the text. Who did not feel like this?
A third ancient one stood and said: “Rabbi, Rabbi, we differentiate among the trees of the heavens. And here, only the apples were mentioned, but we bless all the trees of heaven, for about them it was said: ‘And the smell of your nose like apples” (Song of Solomon 7:9). And not only that, but also every kind in heavens is fit to make a blessing over it. And we use the myrtle because it has three leaves, called the three little myrtles, which allude to the three forefathers. But the two nostrils are parallel to the two apples, which are the two true prophets from whom in the future will come forth the Holy Spirit, which is the Faithful Shepherd from above. In him, there will be her soul. And because of that, it was said: ‘Comfort me with apples; for I am sick of love’ (Song of Solomon 2:5). In the night of Shabbat, it is said: ‘I rose up to open to my beloved’ (Song of Solomon 5:5). And when the Shabbat comes, it is said: ‘But my beloved had withdrawn himself’ (Song of Solomon 5:5). And at that moment, ‘I sought him, but I could not find him; I called him, but he gave me no answer’ (Song of Solomon 5:5). Until I have sworn that in another future I will hold his hands and I will not let him depart, as it was said: ‘I held him, and would not let him go, until I had brought him into my mother’s house’ (Song of Solomon 3:4). This is the Temple above. ‘And into the chamber of her that conceived me’ (Song of Solomon 3:4) - this is the Temple below”.
And at the moment that I hold his hands in redemption afterwards, it will not be as the last times, for in each and every redemption he used to come to me, but then he would depart. But in this later redemption, I will hold his hands and I will be connected to him with a few bonds of love, in order for him not to depart from me for ever and ever. In each and every Exile, he departed from me, and I used to ask about him to everyone that came or went. And this is why it was written: “It was but a little that I passed from them, but I found him whom my soul loves” (Song of Solomon 3:4). And sometimes, I could find no one who could tell me something about him, and I was terrified because of him. And I looked for him among all the dwellers of the city. And this is why it was written: “O daughters of Jerusalem, if you find my beloved, that you tell him, that I am sick of love” (Song of Solomon 5:8). And sometimes, “By night on my bed” (Song of Solomon 3:1) - which are the undulations - “I sought him whom my soul loves” (ibid. 3:4). And there was none to tell me about him, until he came to me. And now, in the last exile, my beloved ran away in great anger. And I asked about him, but could not find who could tell me something about him. And because of that, I am in panic, and decided that in the future I will hold his hands and will never let him go from me. I will hold him and will not let him go, as the bonds of the phylacteries used in the hand. And I will not let him go as the phylacteries of the head.
A third ancient one stood and said: “Rabbi, Rabbi, we differentiate among the trees of the heavens. And here, only the apples were mentioned, but we bless all the trees of heaven, for about them it was said: ‘And the smell of your nose like apples” (Song of Solomon 7:9). And not only that, but also every kind in heavens is fit to make a blessing over it. And we use the myrtle because it has three leaves, called the three little myrtles, which allude to the three forefathers. But the two nostrils are parallel to the two apples, which are the two true prophets from whom in the future will come forth the Holy Spirit, which is the Faithful Shepherd from above. In him, there will be her soul. And because of that, it was said: ‘Comfort me with apples; for I am sick of love’ (Song of Solomon 2:5). In the night of Shabbat, it is said: ‘I rose up to open to my beloved’ (Song of Solomon 5:5). And when the Shabbat comes, it is said: ‘But my beloved had withdrawn himself’ (Song of Solomon 5:5). And at that moment, ‘I sought him, but I could not find him; I called him, but he gave me no answer’ (Song of Solomon 5:5). Until I have sworn that in another future I will hold his hands and I will not let him depart, as it was said: ‘I held him, and would not let him go, until I had brought him into my mother’s house’ (Song of Solomon 3:4). This is the Temple above. ‘And into the chamber of her that conceived me’ (Song of Solomon 3:4) - this is the Temple below”.
And at the moment that I hold his hands in redemption afterwards, it will not be as the last times, for in each and every redemption he used to come to me, but then he would depart. But in this later redemption, I will hold his hands and I will be connected to him with a few bonds of love, in order for him not to depart from me for ever and ever. In each and every Exile, he departed from me, and I used to ask about him to everyone that came or went. And this is why it was written: “It was but a little that I passed from them, but I found him whom my soul loves” (Song of Solomon 3:4). And sometimes, I could find no one who could tell me something about him, and I was terrified because of him. And I looked for him among all the dwellers of the city. And this is why it was written: “O daughters of Jerusalem, if you find my beloved, that you tell him, that I am sick of love” (Song of Solomon 5:8). And sometimes, “By night on my bed” (Song of Solomon 3:1) - which are the undulations - “I sought him whom my soul loves” (ibid. 3:4). And there was none to tell me about him, until he came to me. And now, in the last exile, my beloved ran away in great anger. And I asked about him, but could not find who could tell me something about him. And because of that, I am in panic, and decided that in the future I will hold his hands and will never let him go from me. I will hold him and will not let him go, as the bonds of the phylacteries used in the hand. And I will not let him go as the phylacteries of the head.
