Polly4, we are glad that you have been here reading for some time, and that you have decided to write on this forum. We have many, many people I am sure who do read and we never know that they are here, but that is good, because eventually like you they make their presence known. This is a very friendly place, and the people here are upbeat as well as having great conversations. We all get a lot of benefits from each other here, and there is godly, spiritual encouragement here as well. I hope that you find what you are looking for here, and that someone will see what you have written and will respond. God is good all the time!